Do you ever feel like you’ve depleted absolutely all your energy and are just so done with being an adult? This feeling has been brewing in me for weeks, and it finally broke out last Saturday morning. I was hanging out in the kitchen with V (my awesome hubby) drinking coffee, and suddenly, tears started rolling down my cheeks uncontrollably.
I finally just had it.
Overwhelmed with frustration and exhaustion, in that moment, my life felt like an endless list of:
- and checking things off
My job is insanely stressful and more demanding than ever these days, and of course, being an autism mom can also be extremely energy-depleting and demanding. AND THEN, there is the ‘life factor’ which I refuse to give up and try to do as many things as I can possibly fit into my day.
As a result ~ there I was standing in the kitchen crying to V that I’m overwhelmed, exhausted, dissatisfied. Life is not supposed to feel like this! Where am I rushing to? Why do I intensify things with more unnecessary worries, doubts, guilt, overthinking, you name it?! It is as if I am sabotaging myself…
Am I sabotaging myself?
Because truly, most of the things I do in my life I chose myself, and many of those things I actually like, certainly enough to offset the things I don’t like, and if not for overthinking and over worrying, my life might feel so much better.
So what now? Crying certainly felt cathartic, but after the tears subsided, some reflection started. I have to learn to do things in moderation, cool down on intensity, concentrate on things that inspire me, and focus on the quality of my experiences rather than quantity.
With that being said, I want to share something with you. Lately, I’ve been so worried about writing just to write, that I’ve completely forgotten about WHY I started this blog in the first place. I started blogging to capture the beautiful little moments in each day, to express my heart’s desires, to share simple pleasures, to express myself, capture memories, and share happy moments. Not to cross a checklist off my chore list.
Now to the announcement. I’m restructuring my blog writings and musings. I will be posting on the blog every Wednesday moving forward, writing about beautiful things that I fall in love with, lifestyle hacks and tips, and the extraordinary experiences I enjoy. I hope only and always to inspire you to live your better life. PLUS, I will be sending out a completely redesigned, beautiful monthly newsletter to all of my lovely followers with more helpful lifestyle hacks and tips, healthy living tips, and fun and fashion inspirations.
Now it’s your turn, can you please share with me ~ have you ever felt overwhelmed? Tell me your story for a chance to be featured in an upcoming blogpost. I really want to create an intimate, authentic community where we can all share our struggles, our triumphs, and be real with each other. Please comment below.
I am so thankful to all of you for taking the time to read my posts and always being there for me.
Lots of love,
♡ Zuma Ayriyan